I am sincerely sorry that I have taken so long for the continuation of the birth story for Tristan. My continuation was supposed to be quickly after the last blog; however I got caught up and the last 3 weeks have totally slipped by me. So...here we go!
My hospital stay lasted 2 full days - Tristan was born on Wednesday and they let me go home on Friday. Lucky enough the Maternity Ward was not overly packed, so they actually gave ______ & ______ their own room to stay in the entire hospital stay with Tristan. The hospital was absolutely great with _______ & _______ and taught them the in's and out's of the new parenting tips and tricks.
I loved having ______ & ______ in the room next to me! When I had visitors, they had visitors...of course everyone was there to see the end product of this wonderful experience -TRISTAN! ______ & ______ have really become a part of our family throughout this process - so my family and Jeff's family and our friends all wanted to see us and Tristan and the new Daddies!
Right after the birth, I was able to hold Tristan...during this time that I held him after carrying him for 9 1/2 months and handing him over to other people to be his parents I needed that little moment to have with him. During this time, I held him close to me, looked into his newly opened eyes and said "I have held you and have kept you safe for the past months. Although some of the time was trying, I would never take any of it back. Now, it's time for me to hand you over to your Daddies for them to keep you safe. You are in great hands and will be loved unconditionally for the rest of your life. I love you and will never forget this experience." With tears rolling down my face, I then handed Tristan back to his Daddies. I needed that moment - to share with Tristan (although of course he can't understand) the purpose of why I did this experience...why my family did this experience.
Emotionally, after the birth of Tristan - besides the regular Baby Blues - I was okay. I enjoyed being able to help ______ & ______ with Tristan when they needed help, I enjoyed being able to visit with them and watch them interact with Tristan during his first two days alive. My nurses were great and my overall hospital experience with this birth was great! I decided, after speaking to Tristan's pediatrician, that I would provide Tristan with my colostrum as it's the best thing for him (and of course I would do it for my own children). So, my days in the hospital, I did pump my breasts to gather enough colostrum for Tristan to drink. Colostrum (if you don't know) is one of the best things for newborns to get - it has a massive amount of antibodies to protect the newborn from infection and sickness, etc. So, I knew it was the best thing for him and wanted to provide that one last gift to Tristan and his daddies. You'd think that this may have brought me closer, but like the rest of the experience - I kept my self emotionally aware of the entire situation.
The Goodbye at the hospital - the time that I was let out to go home to my beautiful family was okay, as well. I knew that this Goodbye was not a final goodbye and that I would be seeing Tristan and his Daddies within the next couple of days. It was sad because I had to leave the same vicinity as them - I couldn't walk next door to hold the baby and watch all of them interact - but it was time for me to go...time for me to get back in the swing of things, in the swing of my life - of my loves - my husband and my children!
Tristan Ryan - born April 25th, 2012 - a day that our Incredible Journey brought the ending gift...the day the Stork brought the baby...the ultimate day that many lives were changed!
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