Hey Bloggers - I guess it's about time to STOP being LAZY and finally give an update...huh? I know, being on bedrest, you'd think I'd have the time to write multiple updates...but there's nothing fun about being on bedrest - so I figured who would want to read a boring blog about sitting on the couch, getting up to go to the bathroom and/or shower and then moving from the couch to the bed and doing that 900 times a day! What's exciting about that?
As you all previously read, at 29 weeks I had a complication which was diagnosed as Chronic Abruption of the Placenta which has put me on bedrest for the remaining part of my pregnancy or up to 37 weeks. SUNDAY I'M OFF OF BEDREST!!!!
Since week 29 - I have had weekly appointments for Non-Stress Tests and all have gone perfectly except for one week - Week 33 - where I had to again go to the hospital. At this stress test - the baby's heart rate was jumping between 175 - 195 beats per minute for over 10 minutes of monitoring. In the ultrasound - Tristan looked completely fine but was just bouncing around everywhere...so to be safe - they sent me to be monitored at the hospital for 2 hours while Tristan of course then decided to sleep. All in all, he was absolutely fine and since then there have been no complications at all.
Effective Sunday, I get to stop my contraction meds and stop bedrest and get ready to have this little peanut for his incredible daddies! 37 weeks is approaching quickly and it's safe to have Tristan at any time now!!!
_________ & ________ aren't due to come to CT until April 23rd. I have my last NST scheduled for April 24th and a scheduled induction for April 25th at 9:00am. If everything goes as planned - this would be fantastic as ________ & ________ will be here to experience the birth of their child! This is what we're crossing our fingers for; however at my appointment this week we learned that I was close to 3cm dilated and when a baby wants to be born, he wants to be born. So - fingers crossed Tristan holds out for his daddies, but we can have this baby any day now!
So, what are my thoughts behind this? What emotions am I faced with lately? Basically the same - I love Tristan as he's growing to be a big boy in my belly and because I and my husband made this decision to carry _______ & _______'s baby. He's not mine - so the emotional attachment that you would have to your own baby that you are carrying is not there. It's very hard to explain...BUT I have found myself having to pep-talk me more. What's that mean? Well, lots of my friends are having babies right now - I've held them and have remembered just how LITTLE and precious they are at the baby stage. Here I am, having a baby for a fantastic couple - that I will give birth to and then hand over to the deserving parents. Eventually, I will get to hold Tristan - but it's the exciting part of being a new parent - getting to hold your baby for the first time, having the skin-to-skin Kangaroo Care that you do with your baby. I will be watching two daddies for the first time hold their little boy in front of me! I think that I will be completely fine - it brings a huge smile across my face to write those facts - but at the same time...I honestly don't know how I will be at that moment. I think I'll be fine - but will I really be? Will I be emotional as all those pregnancy hormones race out of my system? Will I cry? Will I want to have my own baby after this experience? These are all questions that my Pregnancy Brain have brought into my mind and I just find myself reinforcing why Jeff and I ultimately made the decision to do this. So - all these feelings - it's not because I am in love the baby that is inside of me as it's my own - but basically because I've done this for the past year - prepared myself, have gone through complications, have become this huge preggo lady to in the end hand over the bundle of joy to the daddies that have become a part of our family for the last year. It will all end at that moment...the moment that Tristan comes out - he will no longer be inside of me, a part of me and will really be his daddies little boy. In the end, I will be Autumn again, Mommy of Tatum and Gavin and wife of Jeff and will begin to have our "normal" life back - but how do you go back to a normal life after facing an adventure as we have for the past year?
I guess I look at it as my family and I will start a new adventure after the arrival of Tristan - and knowing our family...I can only imagine our next adventure will be just as crazy as this one!
I'm very excited about the day...the day that Tristan comes, the day that ________ & ________ become REAL daddies of their own little baby boy, the day that I can pick up my children who have for the past 7 weeks patiently understood why I haven't been able to hold them, and just to see what is the next chapter in our lives!
I will update you as soon as we have this little boy or if anything takes a turn in this pregnancy...Thanks for reading!!!
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